Sunday, 11 September 2011


11 September 2001
11 September 2011


There's 6 minutes of quiet time for me today.

Saturday, 10 September 2011


Given tomorrow's history, I thought this somewhat apropos.

Desiderata (Latin for "desired things") is a 1927 prose poem by American writer Max Ehrmann (1872–1945). The text was largely unknown in the author's lifetime and became widely known after its use in a devotional.

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Friday, 9 September 2011

10 years ago Sunday

Much like the assassination of JFK, I think every one of us alive and able to remember 11 September 2001 knows exactly where they were that day.

I remember getting ready to take my ex-wife to an ultrasound appointment for our then unborn daughter. Right before we left, my ex's mother called.

"Turn on the TV ... my God, you won't believe it."

And there was the WTC ablaze. An accident, they called it. Somehow, tragically, a plane crashed into the Tower.

Then the second hit, right in front of our eyes, and my heart sunk. This was no accident, this was intent.

My heart sunk for two reasons. One, for all the tragic and senseless loss of life. Secondly, I vividly recall thinking, "what have I done, bringing a child into a war zone?"

Remember, to that point, these were heady times. The Cold War was over, the Berlin Wall had come down, we were riding the technology boom wave and had survived the New Millennium. January 1, 2000 hit and the world rocked on, crack me another beer. I had grown up living under the tail end of the Cold War and the threat of global thermonuclear war. At the time, I couldn't fathom bringing a child into that. Then all was right in the world.


At time wore on, I grew to accept our new reality, primarily because I, as well as my siblings and friends, were born to loving parents despite the cold war, just like they were born during WWII. We were all fine (more or less, depending on definition) and survived it.

So will my daughter.

And not a day has gone by that I've regretted having her, not a day has gone by that I've not thought of her and smiled, and considered myself the luckiest Dad in the world.

Tuesday, 6 September 2011

Well that was quite the weekend

Simply amazed, I am.

First, I'm staggered by the amount of people that are actually coming by here. Not only looking, but reading, posting comments and emailing! I'm truly flattered ... thank you!

I had the wonderful opportunity to go to a camping resort with very good friends of mine this past long weekend.

Well ... camping is a misnomer. Yes, it was out of town, and yes, there were trees, and a lake ... but there was also pools, hot tubs, beer, music ... Labour Day football on a big screen TV on the main stage ... where bands played at night. You know, camping.

Stop looking at me like that.

Anyway ... good food, friends, the hot tub, beer, music, dancing, laughing, fires, letting my daughter run amok through the site with her friends. Coming home tired and smelling like smoke.

For a while, the world stopped, and everything was perfectly right. Right to the point, you recall events, and it brings you an immeasurable feeling of peace.

Thursday, 1 September 2011


Is it just me, or does there seem to be this "game" that's played between men and women when it comes to dating?

Can't seem too eager ... that means desperate. So if you play too 'loose', that means you're self centered and egotistical. Or, you just don't care.

I don't really favour either, so I just try to be genuine. Somehow, it still gets interpreted either way.

Maybe I'll just give up out of frustration!

Sunday, 28 August 2011

Nights in a northern town

You learn over time to carry an extra bag with you when you do medevacs. Just a little one, big enough to carry a shaving kit, socks, underwear and a t shirt. Simply because you never know when you may "time out" away from base. It happened recently when I was separated from my electric razor ... and needed to use a blade. It had been many years since I used a blade. The results were satisfactory, but enough to make me decide to get an extra bag.

In any event, I had to run out to the hangar in order to retrieve my extra bag from the aircraft. On the way back to my crew house, I looked up.

I was dazzled by the brilliance of the stars, despite the airport lights. They're still brighter than what we see in the city. There are so many more. The black is incredible, the stars dazzle, and it makes me wonder where exactly Earth is in all of this. Where are the other intelligent forms of life, and how far away? It all makes you feel so incredibly small, and somehow yet so important. Every creature plays a part on this planet, if even for a short time in relation to the rest of the universe.

Working Sundays

Even though I'm away from home for a week at a time, Sundays are usually a more casual pace and a bit of a blessing.

(You'll note I purposely avoided that "Q" word. It's a superstition thing. Say that word, and it no longer will be.)

Time can be spent watching TV, catching up on email or FaceBook, reading, blogging or catching a nap. I've also tried to make better use of free time lately with push ups, sit ups, stretching and using my resistance band.

It also leaves you with time to think.

I wonder if I've done all that I could with my life up to now, and I wonder about the mistakes I've made. Those two I try to remind myself of a Tim McGraw lyric:

Well you do what you do and you pay for your sins,
And there’s no such thing as what might’ve
Been, that’s a waste of time; drive you outta your mind

As much as you'd like to go back in time and do things differently, you can't, and there's no guarantee things would  work out any better. I'm not religious by any stretch, but I am spiritual. Things are happening for a reason, they're unfolding exactly as they should. We don't have to understand them, we don't have to like them, we do need to respect them though. I do try to look for clues as to what the universe is trying to tell me ... and work karma as best I can. A good word, a good deed, no anger, no violence. Just doesn't seem worth it.

That how I try to look to the future now. Do more good than what I see, try to get people to pay things forward. And when I do look to the past, I try to remember the things I've done wrong, the hurt I've created ... and not do it again. But if for some reason, I've made someone angry or sad, I try to figure out what the issue was, and honestly and sincerely apologize. Things just seem to be a whole lot better that way.
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